Heavy Rain

As they say , Heavy rains is always meant for a gloomy day , a sad day , a day that no one could smile about . Well i think it's true . I was strolling in my old man's car hearing the old wiper making squicking sound while making a clear view for me to see the road . And as i was on my way home , i think to myself even a beat-up wiper with an irritating sound could still be useful as it gave me a clear view . But then again , one day that old trusty wiper is gonna be replaced to a brand new one . I don't know why , but to think of it makes me sad . It is like strolling in a car waiting death to come .
I cant smile or even laugh . I even off the radio because it doesn't help . As i hear every rain pour it was just sadness binding me . Why am i sad ? I am sad of love . And the Heavy Rain came to the right moment in my life . I think i am not ready to fall in love or being in love . These days what makes a relationship strong is because of money then comes love . Even how much a person loves you money does come first . Looking at me now i can just offer my love but not my wealth . I don't deserve to love ! I might as well step back look foward and go for the goal that is to live in wealth . But i gotta prove myself that i am worthy of it . It hit my head that i was actually all this while i kinda have forgotten my Creator ! It is selfish of me to go back to Him when only im in need of help . I think THIS time , I am going back for good ! I know it will not be a perfect run but i know that if i keep this , I'll be better . And who knows i will be able to love again normally . Right ? It is just a matter of time ! I can do this . I could bring sunshine and smiles back ! Just you wait !!