What is going on ?

Lately i wasn't in my best form . And i don't know why . Yes i can say that i am happy with all the upcoming events such as graduation , birthday , further studying , etc . But when I'm alone , i tend to be at my worst form . It is like I'm sad over something . As if like there is something i haven't completed it yet or sad of what is becoming of me . Why should i be sad right if everything that we planned was a success . So i figure . Night is the time where my mind starts being so negative . I would be like "Is there any hope ?" , "Is there an escape ?" , "Should i wait ?" , "Should I not turn back ?" . Questions after questions but i still don't have answers for it . What am i hoping for ? Why do I need to escape ? What do i wait for ? Is it wrong to turn back ? It keeps coming and i don't have any answers . No image running thru my mind . Nothing . Hold on , the only image that i have is that I'm standing on bridge while the heavy rain pours during nightfall . What the f*ck is that ? The answer for this is I Still Don't Know .