The Monkey , The Mother and The Apple

Love . Queen . Soul

Goodbye for now .

Whatever happens , happens !

There is a reason behind it all .

Fate has a funny way of playing games on me .

I expect nothing at all but only to one question .

Why ?

-End-

Umi

11th March 2011

She left us . She suffered too long . Her dream did came true . She said that in the dream she was not invited to my sister's wedding . She couldn't make it . The whole nikah ceremony was gloomy and wet . It shows on their faces . My dad's eyes as if it could no longer open wider . And I am trying hard to divert the sadness . I went here and there , talking to people but deep inside it is killing me . To know your own mother left u .

She is the best to everyone ! She wanted the best for everyone . That is how she lead her life all this time . We admit that without her in the house , everything is a mess ! I am still shock to know that she is gone . I could almost feel her in the house .
The way she laughs . The way she rebels . The way she cook . The way she walk . It is still fresh here in my mind .

I am actually out of ideas to even write here in this post .

p/s: I'll continue this post soon .

2011 Pelik Bagi Ku .

Hahahaha

Betul betul pelik tau . Kerja tak menentu . Tak fix . Then keluar sana sini like randomly . Staying home one whole day .

Serabut jugak kadang-kadang . But maybe this is what I'm trying to say , Live in the moment . Cakap banyak kali memang aku rasa bajet but to think of it , I'm having fun .

I am always walking an talking . Driving here and there without knowing what to expect and so far everything turned out well and easy .

I can say i am super busy with friends and work . But still i got time for my parents .
Now tambah pulak dengan perkahwinan kakak ku .

Fuuuhhh hectic yet fun :D

So conclusion , I am living it ! =D
Not to forget , I am thankful to Allah . =D

STOP RIGHT THERE

This year will be Awesome and Legend . .Wait for it . . Dary ! Hahaha

These are the lineups of events i may be joining

1. Broga part 3
2. Genting BBQ Night
3. Extreme Park Sunway Lagoon
4. Wall climbing with Muz
5. A trip to Phuket
6. Laser gun at Mid Valley
7. Paintball
8. Diving
9. Jetski
10. Redang

Like seriously . This is life man .
My passport pun dah siap .
So ? What are we waiting for ey ?
Ayuh !!!

The World Is Yours

Well , it may be for Tony Montana
But for me , I am creating my own world in my head .
It is just a matter of time for me to be in the next level in education .
And taking theater is not bad .
Right ?
Who are you to judge ?
Do you know what would you be like in 10 years ?
Are you going to succeed or the other way around ?
So stop judging people by their education level .

It is an honor to actually know someone who accepts the way you are .
You do your work and I'll do mine . Simple .

So , by holding on to theater , imagine that i could make my own world on stage .
Ain't that brilliant ? It is like a superpower where you can just magically
transform a wide stage from your mind . Fuhh

Anyhoo . To think of it , rich and educated people will buy tix to watch right ?
At the end , people with good professions ends up coming back to us .
Tapi tadi baru je kutuk kitorang ni lowlife ? Hahaha
Human without a brain . "Too bad ah" Quoted by SS . Hahaha

So , By getting these people to watch your show , doesn't that makes you their leader .

You control them ! You control how they feel . Am i right ?
So basically they are in my hands and eventually you can control the "world"

So don't ever look down on us . Without you realizing it , you want more of us !
We are as important as you guys are .
We are no different .

Eventually The World is Mine ! =D

Living In The Moment

Live the moment

This quote had been ringing in my mind for the past two weeks
But I just don't get it .
I still think about the future . Hoping here and there when actually
things are better if you just live in the present .

No worries . No headaches . No nothing .

Don't think ! Just live !

We'll never know what's going to happen to us .
Let fate do its work
The more you think of the future and the past,
The more slow you become in achieving your goals .

Be free . Enjoy . No matter for the young and old .

Don't complicate things . Just don't think .

Somebody actually put this in my mind for the past two weeks

I admit that i was in my darkest hour

But hey , she gave light to me .

I can say that she is my hero ?? Haha

But only now i know what is the real meaning

of Live The Moment .

The way i think is different now .

Que sera , sera is what i hold on to right now .

And lets see what life has in stores for us . =D

Challenges for Both

As i look at the starry night
My hopes and dreams became wider
The mind tells it all
How far you've grown

My heart beats fast
Fast for many days
To look for a falling star
To wish
But it never came

My head is heavy
Heavy with burdens
Burdens that I myself
Couldn't even figure why

Fate has spoken
To challenge it
Is my goal
To where i stumble
I couldn't care less

Don't you dare give up
I will never
Even if there is no hope
Make one
And let Sunday be my judge

To see the ill
Is not what I seek
Facing it
Is my only choice

The wind has spoken
Accepting it, I will
With every might and patience
To you i will attend

Not to others, But to you

Lost of heart and companion
Is for me to forget
But to lose a mother now
Is Not what I seek

Dear God, hear my heart
As I plead for mercy
To You i give faith
To You i am humble

Dear God,
Help her on her knees
A new dawn
For her to see

As the tree of life
Wont fall now
Let it stand strong
Is what i pray

Give her the strength
To embark her journey
Of everlasting
Happiness that she could share
To us

To see her eyes dry of tears
To see her flesh made visible
To hear her voice of true joy
Is what I pray

Dear God
Listen to my little heart
For what I seek
Is a better life

Not for me
But for her

To lose a companion
I broke
To lose Her
I would rather be in Darkness

Mother ,
Be strong
Embrace life
You will get better

You have our prayers
YOU WILL GET BETTER

I Love you, Mother

Let's overcome the obstacles
And hope that there is an end
To all our heartaches

To Allah we pray

Amin